Week 7!

Verse:
Colossians 2:6-7
“…just as you received Christ Jesus as Lord, continue to live in him, rooted and built up in him, strengthened in the faith as you were taught, and overflowing with thankfulness.”

Ok. Intense week! We had Ada Bruynes from Holland come and teach us about our Identity in Christ! She had a different style of teaching and would turn our questions back unto us and make us go deeper in our own thoughts and find the root of our thinking. I found out a lot about myself and the way I think this week!

On Monday we were asked to write what we were expecting for the week. I expressed that I wanted to be broken, broken at the feet of Jesus…wow, God definitely answered that prayer this week! We were then required to write “Where are You?”. I found out that I have I’ve been walking along the edge of my call without plunging into it. I know that’s where I want to be, I just need to have faith, trust God, and jump!

Tuesday was a heavy day for me. Ada prodded me with some questions that brought out the sentence “we can strive [to be like Jesus].” I found that I’ve been trying so hard for God to accept me. I knew in my mind that all I need is Jesus, but I didn’t realize it in my heart.

Wednesday was tough for me as well. She taught on “rejection” and I knew it was going to be hard. During the lecture, many old feelings and emotions of rejection came up, and I had to leave. I ran for my room, and broke down crying on my bed, praying to God. I prayed that He would help me with these feelings of rejection.

Thursday was another hard one. We were given a mirror and told to write one lie that the enemy has been telling us. I wrote “You must TRY HARDER in order to be accepted”. The students each shared about what they wrote, prayed, and then SMASHED mirror with the hammer. It was my turn, and I thought I could hold it together but I broke down and began to cry. I shared how rejection had been such a big influence on my life. I then prayed, and grabbed the hammer. I felt I couldn’t just hit the surface so I turned it around, and the plunged the claw end of the hammer through the mirror. I really feel that this is the first steps of getting over this lie.

God bless!
Shane