How...

How can you be surrounded by friends, yet feel all alone?
How can you be fully clothed, yet feel naked?
How can you be in a sturdy home, yet feel exposed?
How can you work so hard, yet see it fall to pieces in front of you?
How?

I feel like I'm lying on the floor, helpless, defensless, useless.
God is finding all the little things inside my heart that I rely on,
He is finding my crutches, my safety blankets, my protective walls,
And plucking them from me, leaving me feeling alone, naked, exposed, and broken...
There is nothing left but myself.

For the first time, I feel as if I can't contribute,
I can't help, I can't lead, I can't do anything.
God is teaching me to rely ONLY on Him, by whatever means necessary.
He's getting quite blunt with me, exposing things that shouldn't be there...
I don't expect I shall be the same person after this...wrecked for Jesus.

Shane Lintunen
July 3rd, 2009